Almost four years later

When I was fourteen, my boyfriend of seven months molested me at school. Until I broke up with him a year later, he continued to abuse me in that manner and emotionally abuse me. I sometimes said yes that I wanted it, but I sometimes didn't and I would lie that I wanted it. He made me do the same thing to him and if I didn't, he would get mad at me and ignore me and made me feel like I did something wrong so I would lie to him and say that I wanted to do that as well. Almost four years later, I am able to engage in those activities without freaking and while feeling safe. However, I still feel bitter and angry and I haven't told my family. I'm mot really sure what to do about it because I don't know how to get over it, if that's even possible, or if I really deserve help and support because I was only molested and not raped.