Angsty rant

i forgot today that sex is supposed to be something you do with your partner to actually help them be happy as a person, and like if sex wouldn't make them happy you would actually stop and not push them. and not just treat them as a body you're using/guilt-tripping/coercing into it, because that's how all men have treated me. literally NEVER had any partner treat me like they actually care and would listen/respect what i say makes me happy.