Coping with Sexual Assault

Hello All,

I'm new to this chat. But I really need someone to help me heal or at least talk to about what happened to me 4 years ago.

I had just started college away from home. It was exciting because it was my first time being away from my parents and to learn how to be more independent.

For the first month, everything was great. I made excellent friends and joined a whole nice group of international students. I became to one of the friend groups guys, and we hit it off extremely well. I liked being around him so much to the point eventually he was my first kiss.

But a month later I spent the night at his place with his roommates. We were all friends and they knew my boundaries. But the guy i was closest to let a friend of his friends sleep over. I met him that night and even considered having him meet my roommate. I thought he would be great for her. So I decided to stay since It was too late to walk home so I stayed there.

That night he sexually assaulted me. I was too afraid to shout for help. I said no but he never listened.

I shut myself away, as my first semester of college I had to deal with campus police.

I became codependent on others because I was afraid to be alone.

But in the second semester I met a nice boy and we started dating. Now we've been dating for 3 years but Im dependent on him that now living at a distance has brought me back to freshman year.

I'm tormented by trauma and it has become detrimental to my life and relationship l

I need some advice