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DW Rape

User Profile: em8843
em8843 August 6th, 2020

6 days ago I was drugged and raped. Me and my friends decided to go camping and to drink, bare in mind i'm only 16. They got ecstasy but I was only going to have vodka because I don't do drugs. I got a little drunk but I could still act normal, nothing bad. A person who I thought I could trust drugged me with ecstasy and then brought me to a boys house and let him rape me.I've been struggling so much since. I constantly have flashbacks, can't sleep, I go into panick states and more. Ever since i've had suicidal thoughts because i'm terrified im pregnant. I told two of my friends and one kind of helped me but it still doesn't take away any of my anxiety. The other one said exactly "if you go and tell people that i'm never talking to you again, anyways it's not a big deal you got some dick." I honestly have no words to describe how hurt I was from them words. She was someone who I would consider my best friend. I don't know what to do. I was debating going to the police but i'm scared that everyone will hate me and that my family will be ashamed because of my actions. Here rape isn't ever heard of and sexual assault and harassment is so common that nobody cares. Especially at my age, we were all teenagers. I'm scared i'll never be allowed leave my house again or my parents be extremely strict. Word moves fast where I live so if people hear about it i'll be hated. My friends will also stop talking to me. I can't live like that because i'm on the verge of giving up.

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User Profile: juliak1968
juliak1968 August 7th, 2020

@em8843

Your not alone. You can move past this but lesson learned for sure is trusting may be very difficult in the future and becareful about drinking. Its a shame this hury you like this. Blessings

Dont make it so big that you wont be able to move past it.

Im sorry i dont know what to say.....