Do I still deserve love?

TW: rape

I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world. He never pushes my boundaries. He never wants to hurt me. He enjoys intimacy with me but only so much as I'm comfortable with, anything more than my comfort zone and he immediately doesn't want it. He treats me like his princess and tells me how much he loves me and is proud of me.

I just don't feel like I deserve someone like this. I don't know what he seems in me. Ever since I was abused and raped in my last relationship, I see myself as broken and less than. I lost my virginity in abuse and rape. I know virginity isn't a big deal to some people but it's a huge deal to me and in my culture, best gift you can give your husband/wife, etc. I like to think I have more value than just my sexual value but I don't see a reason for this guy to marry me if I can't give him my virginity because it was stolen from me. And sex aside, I feel like I lost more than my virginity, I feel like I lost a major part of my heart and soul and person. I don't see what there is to love in such a broken and incomplete person. Any man could do so much better.

I feel like I only deserve an abuser because I'm too broken. But I don't want to be abused, so I feel like I'd rather be alone. This makes me feel lonely and hurts my relationships now. What I want is to just feel like I deserve love again.