How stupid can I be?
After years of suffering through a relationship with a constant porn user who pushed my boundaries and eventually started raping me, after all the misery that comparing myself to porn put me through, I thought things were better. I'm with a man I genuinely trusted. I thought he honestly loved me and cared about how I feel. I thought no one would ever care about how I felt until him. And just when I was truly believing that I'd been blessed unbelievably with the most wonderful man ever, I found out today that he does porn, too. I feel so stupid. How could I ever have believed I was good enough for him? How could I have been so stupid as to believe that a man who isn't into that would want to be with me when there are so many other, better women he could have?
All my life I've wanted to find someone and be in love and have a family. I just wish I knew what I did since my innocent child days of blissful daydreams to deserve this. I honestly wish I'd died last night.
@LunaKisses95
I get that you had horrible experiences with someone probably addicted to porn. But not everyone who watches porn is that way, most people are able to see porn for what it is entertainment and fantasy enabling.
As you said you trusted him, he cared for your feelings, you felt good around him. Porn doesn't necessarily change any of that. Similarly to finding out your best friend is gay, they're still the same person you know, just with added information.
I get that dealing with this trauma is hard, but please allow yourself to have good things when they present themselves
@Madaraismyspiritanimal wrong. Porn always affects how a man sees a woman
@LunaKisses95 no, it doesn't! consider talking to a therapist. she would explain you why people look at porn and she would help you with your fears
@beardedlistener actually, there's a great deal of research behind what I say. Feel free to look it up. If you're going to be a jerk, please leave me alone. Porn is cheating and that you would be telling me I'm wrong about it in a supposed support group is astounding. I wish we could block other users on this site.
@LunaKisses95
I am sorry you have had to endure such treatment my friend. If you would like to have a 1:1 chat I will listen compassionately to all you wish to get off your chest. It may be therapeutic for you and my goal ultimately is to give members an outlet for the negative energy from these experiences.
