"I am fine"
Do you ever just get sick of people asking "how are you" and replying "I am fine"
I do. Everyday someone asks me, How are you and a reply with I am fine. I am not fine. I am so far from fine, and to be honest I am not even sure if I will ever be fine. I am broken, I am hurt. I am not okay, I really wish someone would see that at sometime, I am so tired of putting on that pretend smile, pretending to be okay but in reality I am not okay.
I will never be okay, he stole my okay from me and it is not something I can get back, I bury my feelings in overworking and helping others, I hide my feelings somewhere deep where no one will be able to find them, If someone finds them it will just hurt me even more! the reality is, being okay is impossible and I will never be it.
Quote for the day
Sometimes the one with the biggest smile is the one with the darkest thoughts.
Love, Lia
Your post really hit home for me - I entirely see where you're coming from, can relate to the sense that being okay is impossible, and that you're fed up with pretending that you're okay when asked by others. You may think that you'll never be okay again, and to a certain extent, I think that may be true. However, don't lose sight of how resilient you truly are, like a willow tree you can get blown down by the wind but you will pick yourself up again. Your okay will come, and it will be built by you, and those around you that you've come to trust. Take good care of yourself. Grits
@Grits1910 Thank you for this very inspiring message!! Sorry I didn't reply sooner as it was 2am when I saw if❤️❤️❤️
No worries! Glad that I could be of some help. Hope you're having a better day of it today! 😉
I know exactly how you feel. Just know you are not alone. And I know it seems like things will never get better but I promise they will. Keep posting how you feel. It’s good to get things out.
Hi friend, I'm also a chronic over-helping person when I can't control the things happening inside me. I was assaulted when I was 14. It was something nobody ever talked to me about, and I had never properly worked through my experiences. Fast forward to age 32 and I am a different version of okay. It has taken many years but I have worked through what happened, and some days it's harder than others and I regress. My husband is an amazing support for me, knowing that I am not as "whole" as I once was, but loving me gently around it. Sorry if my rambles don't make sense, what I was trying to say was that you may not be okay now, and that's okay. But at the core you are still you, and nobody can take that. <3
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Hi Lia!
I recently found my way back to 7Cups as I'm dealing with some newfound anxiety. Saw this in my notifications and I wanted to check in on you and how you're doing now. :)
