I can't make sense of it.

Lately I've been having recurring memories of dreams I've had as a child growing up, the fear and smell associated with those dreams. I did some Googling and it seem as though a childhood trauma seem to be making its up back up. Honestly I don't have any memory of being sexually assaulted as a child but there's a memory from childhood that wants to come out but I can't access it. Looking back at my actions as a child growing up, it seems more than likely I might have been or I'm just reading too much into this.