I can't sleep
I'm having nightmares again but this time they're of him and I being happy and in love and I hate it why am I dreaming of that he did horrible things to me my mother always says that dreams are just old memories and feelings what if that's true what if I'm remembering it worse then it actually was what if it never actually happened I just wanna cry all the time
@Futurre
Your mother may be right in this case. They're old memories which are haunting your dreams and that can be so difficult to cope with *offers hugs*
After experiencing trauma, we often feel guilty and try to deny what had happened. In this case, happy memories may be trying to block out the pain of what happened. Questions like "what if it never happened?" are also ways of denying it. The first step to healing is accepting that it happened and making peace with the emotions involved. That may seem like a long way away, but you'll get there one day *sits by your side*
Participating in the forums can help you get in touch with others who have had similar experiences. Alternatively, feel free to put out a general request or message a listener from the browse listeners page.
Take care of yourself, cause you deserve it~Sierra
