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I had my first relationship in 2018 in a long time after I was kicked out of my parents home. I really thought he cared about me and I was so in love I would buy him gifts every time he would invite me over to his home which was more than 3 times a week. The first week was okay but then he started asking for things I wasnt used to. He wanted lots of photos of me but I managed to find excuses not to give them. But then when I was at his house to study he would always try to direct the conversation towards having sex. Maybe its just me but after only dating a week I wasnt ready at all to do that. After two weeks he would convince me to do sexual acts with him although I would try to say no a few times. He would make me feel bad saying that this is what all girlfriends were supposed to do and that didnt I like him? At one point we somehow ended up on his bed and we were just sitting watching a movie that I had expressed interest in. But not even halfway through he had pushed me down and tried to touch me and I tried to avoid it but I never said the actual words no. I said things like but what about the movie or just not right now please but it didnt work. I left his house the second aftee we had sex. I felt so empty I didnt even know what to do. We called later that night and i built the courage to tell him I wasnt comfortable doing sex yet and he broke up with me on the spot. Ever since then Ive lost all interest in dating and I dont even find anyone attractive anymore.