I don’t know how to feel

Heyy this is kind of new for me to write this all down and ask for advice but screw it , so I’m 21 rn and I was ‘sexually abused’ by my father (I only put SA as I don’t acc know what to call the situation really) from about the ages of 15-20 he touched me inappropriately and made other sexual advances.

one thing that gets me is I have reported the incidences and I still feel like I can’t get over it , I’m not one to feel everything cuz I’ve been through a lot of trauma over the years with other things but I sort of just feel numb to everything like I don’t even think about it.

I called the police for an update on the case and it just seems like they don’t want to do anything to give him any consequences for his actions and I just don’t know how to feel anymore

does anyone just feel not normal for not feeling anything about it and then feeling random emotions all at once with no reason