I don't know if this is sexual assault or harassment but I do think it's one...

This just happened recently... and I feel bad to share this since I'm feeling like I'm posting for attention but I do feel guilty of this.

I'm still a minor and I really don't know if this is counted as sexual harassment or assault. It's my first time encountering this so please correct me if I'm wrong, but here's my story...

It started in an online game. I was playing and enjoying it and found this player that plays the same game that I like. He's better than I am and I asked for advice on how to get better and he asked me if I have any social media so he can give me tips and me being dumb gave him one.

We started talking and he gave me tips on how to get better at the game. Since I am a dumb person that I am, we talked and I asked what he was like and was trying to get to know him better. I like having online friends and chatting with them, but only for the reason of being a friend and having a playmate. Later on, I was shocked that he said he liked me... even though we just met for a day and now he's saying like he wants me and stuff. Which I feel like it was in a sexual way, but I don't wanna jump into conclusions. Then I asked his age and found out that he's 2 years younger than me, so I felt bad and been thinking that maybe I should distance myself from this boy because people will accuse me for being like a groomer. But I asked for some advice from friends and said that it's cool to only be friends since it's not really much of a big deal. So I did.

And after another day, he kept on insisting and asking if I should date him, which I politely declined since I don't have any feelings for him and said a valid reason that I still want to study, I'm not ready and it's too sudden. He said that he understands and I said okay and he agrees to be like being bestfriends. He then asked for a picture of mine, to see what I look like. And i thought that i think he's a nice guy and we're friends so why not. I realized how dumb I was and sent him a pic of mine, not a dirty one, just a casual photo which I will regret later because he saved that pic.

Along those days, he said some inappropriate sexual stuff, like things like mast**bat**n, like saying why am i not doing that and suggesting that I should try it and saying to me that if it's too sudden to eat out my a** and stuff. I also said 'No' and later said to him that I'm uncomfortabe with him saying those stuff, but he then apologized again but said that he would still flirt. I just brushed it off as I thought it was just for fun and I was dumb for having a tought like that.

And that's the point where I'm thinking that I should really ghost him but since I don't wanna hurt him I planned and decided to distance myself from him like bit by bit and fade away so it doesn't hurt him.

He then flirts again and I brushed it off and dodged his flirty texts but I was kinda getting uncomfy again. I always emphasize the word bestie and friends at him. Then out of those times, he would again mention sexual stuffs like he's down bad and horny and would say jokes like my ass is r*p*d. Which I was speechless and don't know what to do and to say, but in my mind there's a part of me saying to immediately block him. But again I thought he would still change because we're friends, maybe talking to him about it again would make him realize what he's doing. I gave him another chance and see if he doesn't change this time, I would be out.

But then he really didn't, and one day, we were playing again and he confessed that he really does love me and caught feelings for me, And that's the point that I knew that it's time to stop and tell him again that I don't like him, but said it in a polite way. In my mind, I knew that I should really go away and ghost him, but my dumbass didn't do it. Then things get weird, it's like he kept on insisting to date him but the more i politely declined, the more he gets disrespectful.

He then sent me a bunch of tiktoks being sexual and even sent me a picture of a topless woman and would directly say sexual texts to me about his private parts.

And that's where I said goodbye to him and left him on read. Although I know that i already said goodbye, I don't feel relieved, I felt like I was the dumbest person in the world and cried so much after that. I felt numb, humiliated and scared because I kept thinking that what if he uses that picture of mine and blackmail me? What if my parents know what I was doing and then they will just blame me for it. But I also feel like it was my fault and got what i deserve because I kept hanging out with him and didn't leave immediately.

I still do feel scared and I feel like I'm not gonna trust another boy again.

(I'm sorry for the long post, thank you for reading tho. I appreciate it.)