Is my RP kink normal??
A few years ago I was raped by a man who got me drunk and forced himself onto me. Ever since then, I’ve been finding myself into rape play, is that normal? Am I fucked up for taking myself back to that place or am I actually taking some of the power I lost back? I’m so confused and recently I opened up in a public group and I’ve been getting nasty comments. I just wanna know if I’m alone or not.
@CaitsTribe777 I've heard that's actually quite common/normal, for people who have experienced rape/sexual assault to have fantasies about it, even though obviously they didn't like the actual experience. So, I wouldn't say you're messed up or abnormal. Just dealing with it in your own way
@CaitsTribe777 Hi. Anyone who makes nasty comments to you is either ignorant of how the mind/body works especially after trauma, or they're unwilling to talk about the hard stuff and choose to judge to make their conscience feel more comfortable. I think there's balance with all things, and if you're in a safe environment to have those fantasies then maybe that's something that actually ends up helping you move past the event. I would only be concerned for you if you thought about putting yourself in risky situations.
These people in your public group should not be judging you. You are worthy of love and respect ❤️ and should be treated with dignity. Your confusion and questioning are valid. You’re not alone - and yes, it does seem quite common.
I know exactly what you are going through. It makes me feel crazy Bc that’s the only thing that does it for me... You’re not alone.
@CaitsTribe777 I understand how this is confusing for you because this something that is not talked about very much. This is a very taboo subject. It is not uncommon for people that go through sexual traumas, to relive their experiences in some way shape or form. I understand how you may feel that you are taking your power back by doing so. When that traumatic event happened to you, you felt powerless. And since then, you have gotten into this play because you feel that it puts you in control. As people go through traumatic experiences, they tend to repeat them until they change their course of direction. People give you nasty comments because they are not at peace with themselves. You are definitely not alone with this. Thank you for having the courage to reach out.