My Story ****Trigger Warning****

What happened to me is very long. But I will try to shorten it due to the character count...

My cousin abused me mentally after his gf left him. He blamed me. I stayed living with him because I knew the rest of the family abandoned him and I just wanted to help him get better. He is an alcoholic.

One day after crying. He pulled his gun on me. It was a .22 handgun. The gun went off and he shot me. For those that don't know, that's not a killing weapon. The bullet bounced off my head. No penetration but left a gash in my head. I still have pain there. He wouldn't let me call anyone. He hid my phone. We lived in the middle of nowhere and I was scared if he saw me walking out he would kill me. This happened March of last year. He convinced me it was an accident. I stayed. That same day, after I had calmed down, he was drinking heavily and raped me. He continued to rape me until I left. I had reached out to my mom about the gun. She didn't help at all. I didn't tell anyone about the rapes because I was raped when I was 15 and my mom told everyone I was upset that it was a one night Stand and I was just a liar.

I finally told everyone after he and I went camping and he raped me in the tent. He gagged me and we weren't around anyone. The next morning I fought with him. He threw a knife at me and I ran from him

He was following me telling me to get in the car andI wouldn't. So he sped off.

He hasn't gone to jail. I suffer from ptsd. I just... dunno what to do..