My rapist was my first love

When I was 15 I met a boy at school. He was 17. He seemed kind and caring. He shared his story with me, we seemed to have similar pasts. Not growing up with parents and being raised by grandparents. I thought he understood me and my past trauma. My heart went out to him. Our relationship was nice at first. He knew I didnt want to have sex and I wasnt comfortable with i . But at 10 months in the relationship he raped me. There was a school party that night. He showed up in his car and told me we were gonna park near the school and then go to the party. He didn't let me out the car. He raped me. I cried alot and said no over and over. After this incident I still stayed with him for about two months. I was scared and I questioned alot whether it was really rape or not. But I knew it was. He left me when he found a new girlfriend. This new girl started to threaten me and so did he. He threatened to expose pictures he had pressured me into sending. Almost a year after the rape is when I decided to report it my case was dismissed and they said I had no proof. Even his friends knew what he had done to me and they all called me liars and were on his side. My rapist gets to walk around free everyday. I live in fear with the PTSD of what hes done to me.