My story

I havent told many people because I feel ashamed. Like it's my fault. I got together with this guy, and he knew I wasn't ready. He kept trying to push it and push like we had to do it, like I had to do this to please him. He came over, and we were outside and everything. He yelled at me to bend over, so I did. He did it anal, and I tried to scream to my dad, but he held his hand over my mouth, and done it the other way. He forced my to give him a blow- and I said I cant do it. He took my head and manually made me do it. I ended up cutting him with my teeth, and he he start choking me. We got up, I tried to play it off as if nothing happened. Bc everyone was there in my house. K didn't want to start a big thing in front of everyone, I felt so disgusted. He forced me to sit on him, so I did. I felt so uncomfortable. When ended up going for a walk down the road to the creek. I thought he had done his deed, but he was just getting started. He starting fingering me, and I said stop. He said stop fighting you know you like it. I kept trying to push him off, so he kept going farther up. I screamed at the top of my lungs but we were under the bridge. The creek was frozen over. No body heard me bc we were away from my house at the creek. So he didn't cover my mouth. He forced me to give him another blow then we walked back. Again I acts like nothing happened. I really though that was the end. I really did. We had school together, we rode the bus together. He forced fingered me every day for 4 months. I tried so hard to make him stop, I sat away from him, but he always found his way back. I told my family earlier back, my uncle an aunt think I'm lying. My parents try to be supportive. I just wish he didn't exist. I wish I could live a normal life. Today, yes, today he kept talking to me during my cross country practice. He knows I called the police. His friends bully me at school for It, they physically hit me. The police still have my phone, they haven't done anything and it has been since January. 😔