Please tell me what this was

My husband was very angry at me the other day and scolded me for a mistake I made. I felt horrible. Even though, looking back, the mistake wasn't that bad. Anyway, I had been crying off and on that day, and he decided to suggest having sex. I felt like I had to because he made me feel so guilty, even though I didn't really want to. I told him to wear a condom (I can't be on birth control because of migraines) but he said no. He knew I was feeling so horrible that I wasn't going to stand my ground. He kept saying "yeah you're going to do this" etc. And proceeded to use me. In no way way I enjoying what was happened.

I tried to brush it off but then a second time during the day he told me we were having sex, and again I felt like I couldn't say no. I said please wear a condom. And he grabbed one like he was going to, but then he didn't, even though I said no. He knows I'm terrified of getting pregnant again, and he just tricked me into it. It felt disgusting.

Later in the day, I was still shaken up by what happened and I went to talk to him, and he pushed out a pillow into the floor like I was supposed to get on my knees. It's like he thought I was going to be so guilty that I was going to do whatever he wanted whenever he wanted. I just was like... Wait a minute. What's happening?

So the next day I told him it felt like he coerced me. He looked worried and he said he thought that I wanted to be punished. And that he was sorry. But my problem is I'm positive he was trying to take advantage of me and get everything out of me that he could because of my guilt. I know it. But he is practically blaming me now. He said "we" shouldn't have had sex because I was so emotional. There was no "we" in that. I just felt like I had to. He says I should have said no. But I did say no to him not wearing a condom, but he didn't listen to that. So I'm not so sure I actually could have said no. I didn't say yes.