Repression? (Trigger Warning)

I've never opened up to anyone about this publicly before, but I feel like it needs to be addressed and I'd like to get feedback from other people who have had similar experiences.

I have vague memories of my childhood (I was probably between 4-6)of my male cousin molesting me. He would always put his hands down my pants and enjoy it, show me his genitals and ask me to to touch him, and lead me into empty rooms and have me pull down my pants. He'd tell me not to tell anyone. I can't remember anything other than this and I don't believe I was ever raped, but not knowing the logistics terrifies me.

These memories came back to surface around 6th or 7th grade. I remember being very sexual in my childhood and being very confused as to why this was. I remember someone else being in the room with my cousin when he touched me once, but I don't know if they ever told anyoneabout it. I don't know if anyone else in my family knows about this, but I'm too afraid to ask.

I felt compelled to talk about this because I just had a nightmare about him trying to assault me again. I don't think these memories were faked. His father - my uncle - has a history of molestation too, which is worrisome.

This isn't an issue that impacts my functioning, but it bothers me a lot, especially when I see him. He makes me sick. Is it possible that these memories were repressed/does anyone have any experiences similar to this?

Love and light.