Sexual abused by nephew as a kid.
Hi, okay.. I'm 32 yrs, male, and when I was 8 my older nephew started to sexual abuse me. He forced himself on to me saying that it was totally normal, but if I didn't want others to know it could be our 'little secret'. And me as an 8 year old boy believed him. I mean he is family right, family wouldn't lie or hurt someone who is family. And I did was confused by it, and didn't want anyone to know I just kept my mouth shut. After that day, we would have family days with the whole family. Where I knew, he would be there too. And sure thing, during every special family day, family weekend, family vacation there he was. Ready to seperate me so he could abuse me again...
This would continue till I was 15 yrs old. Then he wouldn't, as he quote "have the urge to do it anymore".
Now, 17 yrs later, I still never told anyone this before. Doubting my sexuality (Am I bi-sexual because I am or because of him). Can't get close to people. Can't open up. Prefer to be alone. Taking it's toll now on my mental health and physical health. Don't know what to do next. Sorry to have bothered with all of this.
@Sarevok89
I am incredibly sorry. that is not ok! I hope you will work on recovery.
@anxietywarrior23
Thank you, and I will try. Don't know how or where to begin tho 😥
hello, my name is Heather Lucas and I read your story about u being sexually abused I'm writing to you because I know what it's like to be sexually abused I was 37 years old when it happened to me I was at a restaurant about to eat dinner and then I just started shaking uncontrollably I asked my friends if they knew if he was going to be their that night at the restaurant and they both told me no Heather we didn't know that he was going to be here tonight so as the night went on I sat their still shaking uncontrollably know my ex best friend came over sat down by me and as he sat down I noticed that I felt something warm on my right leg come to find out that it was know my ex best friends arm on my right leg the first time I said it to him in a very nice way u will keep your hands to yourself well the first time that I said that to him he obviously didn't hear me because he did it again and this time I said it in a mean tone u will keep your hands to yourself well he stopped touching my right leg but the sexually abuse didn't stop their then he tried to put his left hand between my legs and by that time I had had enough of him so I quickly got up and said to him are u crazy? don't u ever, ever touch me like that again by the end of the night I was pretty much ready to go home after that night I really thought that my sexual harrsamemt was over with well guess again the next day he came by my mom's house and tryed to ask me if he could see my breasts and I told him no your not seeing my breasts your sick go fuck your wife and that u need help I never ever want to see you again I told him and after that he just kept on coming over to my mom's house and sexually harrising me and scaring the hell out of me this went on for about probably (6) months he's lucky that I didn't file a restraining order against him if he didn't stop sexually harrising me then I was secerley would of filed a police report on him so he could finally leave me alone. know that I'm staying with my dad right now I'm still having scary dreams about my ex best friend sexually harrising me and sexually asulting me too over and over again probably because it's a big fear of mine that I'm defly afraid of if you read this story please reply back to my story ok? I want u to know that u are not allown u can talk to me about anything that u feel comfortable talking about with me ok? sincerely Heather Lucas God is on your side it's going to be ok. u will find someone who will be right for you.