Sexual assault by boyfriend TW

I'm not Going to put a lot of detail but about 2 years ago I was dating this guy, we had been close friends for a few years before dating. We had mutual friends and always hung out. We started liking each other and eventually started dating. And everything was ok.. until we went out on a date to a fair. People would try to talk to me and he would tell them to back off and he was being over protective. When I confronted him about it that day he was understanding telling me he was sorry... but after he did somethings to me and abused me.. I later told someone a week later of the abuse but not the other part after we broke up...

A year later I dated this other guy. He was nice and cared about me. One day we where in his basement and tried to do things. I told him to stop and he asked why and I told him the story. He told me I shouldn't worry about it because it was a long time ago... he did the same thing as the first guy but worse...

I've recently have been having nightmares about it and it's caused so much damage in my life. It's been over 1-2 years now and it still hurts... but I'm still standing here... I'll still be strong... but it still really hurts..