Struggling

I usually go to another forum, Pandora's Aquarium but they're shut down and I don't know for how long. My friend suggested I post here. I'm a little paranoid that someone from my family will somehow figure out its me telling all the horrible family 'secrets' but I really need to talk with someone.

I'm a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and I'm in therapy, actually doing emdr, mostly I'm ok but the last couple of days my ptsd has been kinda bad. Just flashbacks and nightmares but I feel unsteady without my other forum, I know that sounds extremely pathetic and I don't even know what I want right now. Just to be heard in guess. Sorry for sounding so whiny and needy