TW Not sure how to feel about this..
Hey everyone.. Idk how to ask this without it sounding weird.. so I'm gonna just ask.. I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense...
I was raped and molested by my teacher when I was 13.. I am 17 now... It went on for a few months.. and then stopped.. I never really spoke to anyone about it except for a few times on here...
But lately I have been having these really confusing dreams about him... I don't want to get too specific.. I just want to know if it's normal to feel like this... I never want to see him again.. but these dreams make me feel like I "miss" him... I don't even want to use that word.. because I don't feel that way... But I've had dreams like this for a while now...
I feel like I am going insane... And I'm so sorry if this is stupid...
I'm going through the exact same feelings with my ex from highschool 4 years ago. He emotionally, physically and eventually started to sexually abuse me and recently I've been having these nightmares about him and how i want to talk to him again. But at the same time he is my worst fear and I cant even stand anyone that mildly looks like him.
If you can afford/ take the time to see a therapist I would highly recommend it. I just started going again last week and hope to make progress. I dont know what advice to give, but I really empathize with you
