Tw- does this count?

Hi, I’m Frog I went through a very traumatic experience, but now I have started to doubt it I was 12, she was 14. It started with us playing mine craft together, and after a while I vented about my issues with my partner at the time. She gradually kept saying more and more subtle things about them, suggesting I should leave them. After a week or so I did, and she asked me out straight after During the first week or so, she heavily vented over the fact that she had been kicked out of her friend group for coercing me to leave my partner, effectively alienating me from any support. She made me feel like it was my fault about her friends, but then comforted me after. In the first month of us dating, it was just hugs and some kisses. But things escalated quickly. She would take me out into the woods and “playfully” pin me down and kiss my neck. I said yes to it once as a joke, but she kept on doing it. I felt pressured to give her affection back, because she was my first intimate partner. She was fully aware what she was doing was wrong, because any time somebody walked past she would move away from me. Whenever I left those woods I felt disgusting, but I still let it continue for three months. I’ve never told anyone the full story. So thank you for reading this- Frog