Was I in the wrong?
he was my first boyfriend my first relationship so I thought it was okay? Or maybe deep down I knew it wasnt. Anyway he would make me send provocative videos at first or manipulate me and get angry with me if I didnt. Then it started getting worse, he would start touching me in places I asked him not to but held me down and did it anyway. Then one day he held me down and took off my trousers and did things even though I was quite clearly saying I didnt want to I was telling him no but he held me down tighter to the point where he left bite marks and bruises all over my body. I didnt want to be a ‘bad girlfriend so I just lay there as he did it. Was I not clear enough? Was I just asking for it? Should I have done more? I feel sick to my stomach just writing this it makes me feel disgusted in myself
@helpfulHouse7561
He did something terrible and I hope he's held accountable for his actions, one way or another. You were clear enough about what you wanted and what you did NOT want. You didn't give consent to those things that were done to you and you even clearly said 'no'.
This was NOT your fault and I need you to understand that. I know it's extremely difficult to go through something like that and find the right coping mechanism to deal with it. But I do encourage you to seek help, or at least someone to talk to. We are here for you to support you. You can always reach out to me if you wish to open up to a listener❤️