What am I supposed to do?

Had a phone call with local MH team which was supposed to be the time I'd find out the help that they'd 'definitely be able to provide me'... Only to be told that there's a 3 month wait until I'm even assessed!!!! It doesn't make sense...I was so upset that I didn't vocalise my immediate thoughts that I might not be around by then, if I can't find some way of handling the way I'm feeling right now. And WTF am I supposed to 'do' until then? Just chill my heels?! Pretend that I can put the genie back in the bottle and keep it there?? Life sucks... And to cap it all, when I phoned my best friend to seek some support I just couldn't open up to her, I made out everything's ok... Should have got an Oscar for the act I put on. And now? Sitting in my car waiting for doctor to call so I can request increase in my medication (it's just not working). Sitting in my car because I'm to darn scared of missing his call if the network drops between here and home. It's really lonely right now. I've got my hands outstretched for help and nobody's even looking in the right direction.