Why me!?
Tw: abuse, rape. I was in my last year of high school, a year from graduating. Then I was asked out by someone who I thought was the best, turned out you were the worst. You gave me the ultimatum of go on medicine or we break up. I wish we broke up, I wish it didn't happen like this. It was going good until the medicine started kick in, and my sex drive took a plummet. You would threaten to kill yourself, if I didn't say yes for sex. I was forced to say yes, any time I said no before. You raped me, multiple times. I woke up to you, using my feet as your own pleasure when I pulled away, you crawled back in to bed and started to hump me. I cried and you continued till you got off, because you would just tell me I "promised" him. I "promised" you sex, and anytime I said no, it was to be rape or watch you kill yourself. You mentally and emotionally abused me to the point I question myself if I'm right or wrong. You gave me gentile herpes, and a ton of trauma that Ive been avoiding to deal with. I hit myself because of you, I have issues now because of what you did to me, and you got away with a slap on the wrist. You are a coward, why me!? Why did you have to do this to me!? I was perfectly fine, till you came into my life and turned it upside down. I hate you, and hope you burn alive.
@DemonQueen666
I understand you are very upset and I feel this with you. From what all I have been through ,and it has been a lot, I have learned that it is not just us that they do this to. They do what they want to us and others, when they want, for how long they want to, and how and why they want to. It is the way they are inside them. If they are not doing all this to us, it will just be the next one. Yes, I also feel guilty, wrong, why me, what did I do so wrong to cause all of this, and so on and more. But, they and I have had a few of them, some repeated over and over and over, like you had, just do these things because they want what they want. It doesn't seem to matter what we want one bit and how much we say no, how hard we try to defend ourselves, or anything like this. They just do these things! It is in them to do these things!