broken

When I see two males shout/ argue with each other i have really bad flashbacks of when i was sexually assulted by one of my so called friends. and i cant help but think/ blame myself for what happened i feel dirty for loosing my virginity to someone i was friends with not in love with them adn i feel like a slut and dirty.

Hello Cronynb99,

I can appreciate the courage that it took you to be able to write these few words, thank you for sharing with us.

You said that it happened TO you, and that you did not love that older man, it makes me feel that you were forced. And basically, if the young age that you are talking about was younger than your adulthood, you could NOT be psychologically recognized as a consenting person even if at the time you felt as if you were consenting (which I don't know at all), because your mind was simply not mature enough for that. On the other hand, I deeply think that even if you were adult, you could have apparently accepted although you would have been psychologically or emotionally convinced to do it, therefore in that case you still have been forced. Does that make sense to you?

To tell you that I am so sorry that you went through all that would probably and unfortunately be useless, but I am sending you warm and caring feelings from France.

I wish you the very best on your healing path, please take great and gentle care,

Gilles