(heavy tw) my story

I haven’t had the courage to speak up or talk to anyone about this , it’s been well over a year and i still suffer everyday from the trauma it gave me , i recently decided to pull myself out of school and do school online instead . But anyways , it happened last year around my birthday, i was with my girlfriend at the time and me and her were just chilling and watching a movie , my parents also left to go to the store so there was basically no one but me and her , she started to get really touchy and was touching my thighs and trying to kiss me and i just thought she was playing around and being silly so i jokingly told her to stop , i didn’t even think about what would happen after that but she tried forcing her hands into my pants and she got on top of me and that’s when she had r*ped me , i tried pushing her off and she sighed and rolled her eyes at me , i went on with that day but when she had left later that night i broke down and had pretty much started distancing myself from everyone in fear that the same situation would happen again . i still can’t get it out of my head the day it happened but i feel a bit better sharing this now