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i’ve been sexually assaulted several times in my life, including on a first date 2 years ago then again by a boyfriend for several months following. i feel broken. i feel so damaged and worthless and unlovable. i can’t deal with it at all. i can’t have normal relationships or function like a normal person. i can’t deal with beint touched. i feel so fuckint trapped i don’t know what to do. i’m so tired of living like this and i don’t know how i’m supposed to overcome it.
@squeakystool
I'm so sorry that you had to expierence these awful situations. My advise would be to continue reaching out like you've just done. I can't imagine how hard it must have been to write this post but you should be proud of taking the step.
Maybe it's best for now to avoid entering further intimate relationships and ficus on yourself. Do you have any close relationships with friends or family that you can confide in? Also, have the incidents been reported to the police? These are steps that can help you deal with your trauma. Maybe you could reach out to a therapist who specializes in this area? And maybe some kind of sensory therapy?
Most importantly, you are the most important person in your life right now, allow yourself to feel, but practice self care too. Try to remember who you were before this happened to you, if you struggle, write down 10 things you remember about being that person. Slowly, it may help you on the path to getting back to being you.
I'm here to talk.
my friends know and they’re supportive, i guess. some more supportive than others. but it doesn’t really help too much. i just can’t cope with it. my mom knows and she doesn’t care like. st all really so i don’t really have any support there.
i haven’t had any physical relationships ever, my only physics experiences were assault and i’ve never been able o do anything like thst since thst happened.
i didn’t report it. it wouldn’t help me. i’d lose. for sure. i have no proof and now it was a little over 2 years ago. all it would do is traumatize me more, i’m pretty sure. therapy isn’t an option because i can’t afford and even though i’m grown, i can’t drive and my parents are very very unsupportive and would make me feel a whole lot worse if i was seeing a therapist or anything.
thank yiu for your reponse i really appreciate it