my thoughts for today.. 7/17/17

I forget that ppl are there. thats my greatest weakness.

because Ive been bullied and tortured. what my dad did to me.. he forever changed my view of humanity..

then he just.. faded from my existence…

he cant fix me. all he could do was say sorry but that was it…

I have to fix the broken being I am.. how

without people to pick up my pieces I cant pick up my own

and thats why Im rarely talking to people. whenever I do that, they say figure it out and when I do the truth hurts.

and.. the whole thing I am facing.. is one huge spiraling mess

but I know I am walking as a broken entity.. waiting for the right time to pick up those pieces because when I pick up my pieces they shatter again..

it shatters and it will never form again. it wont stay complete all the time

I think thats everyone but my life has more strength and more meaning I bet

nothing is perfect.. and through learning, you can see that it can change someones perspective on life itself, life alone

not all that glitters is gold.

that idiom is the best Ive faced so far.

because when you see something it looks heavenly, but when you find out the meaning behind their way towards how they looked that way… it gives someone motivation

it gives someone a will to want that face.. that undescribable beauty that lies in front of the madness

I feel this way with my dad.. daily

I want to have my own face like he had his greatest loving face.. because he went through so much to get where he is now

he went through so much to get to.. the spirit world

and Ill go through so much to get to.. tomorrow

edited by Rain45 moved to the Trauma community due to forum re-organisation