Sexual Abuse
I was sexually abused when I was a child. Not just once nor twice, nor thrice... by different people. Some are close to me.
Growing up had me thinking 'why?', am I an easy victim? Do I deserves to be treated as a trash?
To make the matter worst, when I was 16, I was ALMOST sexually exploited again. It brings me back to those memories I longed to forget.
With no one to rely on, my diary knows everything and God of course.
Through it all, I can still say that God is faithful, guiding me all along. I believe that all things happen for a purpose and I believe that healing comes directly from God's love for everything has a season and a time to every purpose under heaven.
Now I am 20, I am no longer dwells in those deep thoughts for I found my worth in Jesus.
My past will remain with me, it is still part of me, but that is all. I will move forward and face the new day dawning with my Lord.
Have a nice and safe day!
@talkativecare
Hey! Welcome to the trauma support subcommunity.❤️ I'm sorry to hear you were sexually abused multiple times as a child. No one deserves to go through any of that.. *offers hugs*
It's understandable to have thoughts along the line of "why me?" and "did I deserve that?". Such experiences often leave us experiencing fear, guilt, low self-esteem and a plethora of other emotions. You're not alone in how you feel. I can't imagine what it was like to be reminded of those memories again at 16..Sometimes, we may just feel like running away from those memories altogether..
I am glad to hear confiding in your diary and religious faith has got you through the tough times. The part where you said "my past will remain with me, it is still part of me" is what touched me the most. Accepting this takes a lot of courage...
I hope you have a great day too!
~Sierra❤️
