Visiting my mom’s grave site
I don’t go to my moms grave very often. I was too depressed and over stressed on Mother’s Day. I went last week and hung out for about 15 minutes and told her some new things that were happening in my life. When it was time to go, I felt that I was ok to leave. As soon as I started to say goodbye, I started to get choked up and felt that I couldn’t leave her there. I feel like I am leaving her all over again. My mom passed when I was about to turn 19. She had lung cancer and it hit her very fast. There was nothing that she could do. She lived about 7 weeks after her diagnosis in the hospital. She came home on hospice for 6 weeks. She has been gone for 18 1/2 years now. I had never actually grieved for her. I did stay angry for a long time and I didn’t face reality that she was gone for a long time. I miss her everyday. Its just so very hard to leave her.
I miss my mom, too. She's been gone 14 years, and there are times when I just miss my mommy. She drowned and no one knew for a couple days. It was a blessing to be able to mourn her death as hard as I did because of the sudden nature of the death. I never grieved anything b4 that, like losing my childhood to abuse and innocence to kidnapping.
May her light continue to shine down on u and fill u with warmth and hope.