Anyone in similar situations feeling lost?

yes!! I hear ya!! And I feel ya too. I am trying to keep a positive attitude and laugh at all the nonsense I have to deal with every day. I am not working, but 6-8 hours a day I am at home playing secretary. Making call, emails, running stupid errands, making copies… distractions, from moving forward in my life. Trying to escape my not soon enough, ex husband to be. All the while, landing a job, with complete, brutal honesty about the domestic violence, harassment, bullying, by my lovely husband of the year. He has never worked so hard in his whole life, or work, or our marriage, at destroying my reputation, it’s a laugh or cry situation. It’s an impressive smear campaign. I wish I had powers of invisibility, or I could turn him into stone, something cool like that. I can only dream I guess, and start my life over with nothing left to lose!! I lay in bed at night, and I watch re runs of the golden girls on my iPhone. I want to be one of them, forget men!! Just love life, with a bunch of girlfriends and have slumber parties and all night giggle sessions. That is like a dream of mine. Laugh, cry, and snack together. Sometimes I feel like Dorothy, dealing with her annoying ex, Stan. Most of the time I feel and sound like Sophia!! I am a smart a$$ and make lots of smart comments. That show cracks me up at a time when I need it more than anything. It also keeps me up at night, when I should be sleeping instead. Now I found a pod cast called snooze something, it’s free, and it’s a nice soothing woman’s voice reading fairy tales and fables from old books. I love it, it’s so relaxing and it helps me unwind after a stressful day. I can’t wait to go back to work, in the hospital, in the operating room, where I belong. That’s the kinda stress I live for. This secretary work is for the birds, not my thing. I like to call myself a SUCKRETARY, I am not a people person unless they are sedated, and under general anesthesia, and I am passing instruments to the surgeon.