Hi, I'm 19 years old and new here

I'm new here, and this is kind of hard for me to talk about my things. But I ended up here just to feel better from a constant bad feeling. It's like even though I have people around me, I still feel alone, like there's no one there who can really understand me. Also, the fact that my family doesn't really believe in therapy means I can't afford it.

It's weird—everyone says that they feel comfortable around me, but I can't feel the same way or believe them. It's awful, all of this only makes me think that no one really cares deeply about me. It's just a lonely feeling that haunts me.

and the fact that I've never had a partner while all the people i know can have one so easily, reassure my concerns. Am i boring? Is something wrong with me? Why i feel like nobody loves me? Those are thoughts can't get my head around, and it's really frustrating

P.S: English is not my main language. Sorry for any misunderstanding or mistake in the text