If that makes any sense..
For the past year..
all ive known was sadness, devastation and loneliness.
I’ve lost myself.
lost my smile.
lost all hope.
i Dont allow myself to feel happiness anymore because i dont deserve it.
and i hate it. Every time i feel theres a glimmer of hope i crush it.
i am my own enemy and i keep losing to myself.
i hate it.
i just want the hurting to stop.
and its not that i want to be happy again.. because i know eventually the sadness comes along, and thats just how life goes.
i want to stop feeling…anything.
And just rest in the remains and ashes of a hollow heart that once embraced and accepted life as is.
Dude… I totally feel you :(
You're safe here. We love you <3
@eyeri22 that was hard to read 😥 but I get it, when depression and everything else turns into darkness, it's so hard to get back into the light, so hard to keep hope alive. I hope and pray that one day, the light will once again rule over your life. But till then, we are all here for you ❤ I will gladly sit beside you in the dark, and just hug you when you need someone there. You are not alone you have us now ❤❤ welcome to our cups family ❤gives you a giant tiny hug ❤
@eyeri22
Hi i am ab,
I am did in past months what you did. I see what happen in that phase.
I am just curious to know what are you doing now what happen now in these phase ?
Now I am going out of that phase i stopped and avoid the actions of going down becuse its enough to me.🙄