Overwhelmed
Life just seems like a lot right now. Struggling in a lot of ways. I am usually a very happy optimistic person, at least on the outside, but I am having trouble keeping up that front. My whole life has been about living for others and it’s been hard trying to live for myself and do what makes me happy, Lots of guilt and judgement. I have raised two boys, who I didn’t give birth too but I love them more than the world. But it’s time for me to actually live life, I have been a mom since I was like 14! But I have friends who make me feel like there is something wrong with me. I am going to be 40 and just recently came out as queer. I always knew, I just never felt the need to tell anyone else. I have always been very asexual. The older I get the more lonely I feel. This week everything has just hit me. Stress from a new position at work, stress of a 16 year old, financial stresses, just life! And it makes me wonder why? What is the reward for going through all this? Being alone?
@TiffanyLee1783 That does seem like a lot. And you are more aware now of what is happening to you and asking what it all means. Especially what it means for you. It sounds like you want more connection and fulfillment.
