Why do I hurt myself?
Back in the ER. This time it looks like I might have drank too much and started throwing up blood. Never thought it would happen. It was like a scene out of the Shining. I didn't mean to drink that much, I don't mean to hurt myself but I do these things and I feel horrible about them. I feel bad for letting my girlfriend down and I hate being in the hospital. Looking for someone to talk to because I feel embarrassed, ashamed, and awful and I know I have to give myself a little bit of grace and forgive so I can keep moving forward.
hey bro it's going to be alright I'm a former addict and I know it's hard and humiliating. I think the biggest question that helps you figure out is why like what triggered your addiction then working through it. I'm here if you wanna chat about it!