Depression
So I feel like i may have depression. Been feeling really down recently. Also been feeling all different emotions at the same time. It does get really bad, I am gonna be honest I do self harm, and I do wanna stop, but feels like there's no way out. Feels like everyday is a repeat if that makes sense. It's like an infinite loop that just keeps going on and on forever. Will I ever get better? It just gets worse everyday. I never get any positive thoughts the thoughts i get are always negative. I feel so lonely, I have no friends other than the ones on 7 cups which is great. But feels like I've got no one. No matter how much i try to ignore all the pain and anger it just doesn't stop. I just want to go back to the old me, the person that was always happy and healthy and never gave up. I want to be like that again. But thats never going to happen is it? People say I should see a professional but I don't want to, my mum knows and i told her I don't want to see my gp, I don't wanna talk face to face with someone and she just doesn't care. I don't matter. I feel worthless. Also I keep forgetting stuff i never used to do that i dont know why I've done that now. Also I'm nearly 14 btw. I just wish my life was easier but it's not and it's getting really hard. Also I think i may know what triggered all this, my mums ex was a narcisisst and he would be really bad to me and my siblings. Don't really wanna get into that tho.
Anyway, I hope I explained it well. Also just looking for a friend to talk to so if you want you can pm me.
Sorry for waisting your time
@bestMap6925
Well Map - you're of very high value. (I'm a Christian so I say how I'm thinking - hope you don't mind). You're created by the Most High, God, Jesus Christ. Your body is wonderful. It does so many nice things for you - your heart, pumping the blood to all the cells in the body so they get nourishment - your feet that make you walk, your eyes that make you see - and much more - so please don't hurt it.
Your doctor can give you med so you don't feel so depressed. But when you're ready for it, it is good also to put your thoughts into words by talking to a therapist.
So - I hope you find maybe a good listener here at 7Cup. (I'm not a listener and I'm a 69! years old woman - so I guess you'll find some much younger).
I want you strength and happiness.
Helga.
@bestMap6925
I will also say that there is a room for teenagers at 7Cup, listener for teenager and room for self harm recovery. The last one you find when you go up to the blue line, press "Community" and go down to the letter "s".
All the best.
Helga.
@Helgafy thank you so much that is really helpful