I don't know what to feel
I have had issues with my father... my father was never emotionally available for me he is good person though. This is hampering my love life. And i always end with a wrong guy. In 2020 i had a break up with the love of my life.. we were in a relationship for 5 years he suddenly broke up to marry someone else his parents liked.. he loved me but qas toxic too.. after the breakup i was with someone else who was really good which scared me and nrokeup with him..
Now after all this i really liked a guy who is really nice he likes me but he is sure that there is no future of us together owing to his family situation...
My friends are also acting all weird these days.... amidst all this i am feeling real lonely and i don't know what to do...
I have so much guilt about my past relationships that i think i would be judged and to avoid that i think i should stay single... because i won't find anyone ... no one will like me...
I have always had self confidence issues... i am descent looking, intelligent and ambitious woman and i think that scares men....
I don't know what I feel... its confusing
@dapperFriend555
As someone that struggled with codependancy all my life thanks to a neglectful/abusive mother, I can tell by what you're writing you find it hard to be alone? In my experience when we feel this way we tend to attract relationships that are not suited for us until we feel better within ourselves.
Yes... i m trying tk just live my own company
@dapperFriend555
Also about your friends, do you tell them about your problems a lot? I tended to do that and SOME people have little patience for it, luckily my cousin puts up with me. :)
If you ever need a chat let me know.
Thank you..... I do tell them but not much ... its just that they don't think that i too might need help... i am the one who lends a helping hand always
@dapperFriend555
It sounds like you are self abandoning. There's a video on youtube by Thais Gibson called "reprogram core wounds & your subconscious fear of abandonment." It explains how we learn to abandon ourselves when we're neglected it's a really great video. I did eft tapping (emofree.com) with the information from that and it helped a lot.
Hey I am wanderer.. lately I'm trying to deal with my emotions in a better way let me tell you Ive made small progress but I can also see the parts where I am stuck. I am worried about my thoughts how my thoughts are just filled up of 1 person and i constantly serk validation in my thoughts away from reality . I am trying to work , I have interviews to give but I can't focus on them bcz all I do is think of just 1 person who doesn't even know . I'll take day by day and take up challanges and face my fears .... Trying to be better day by day❤️
@dapperFriend555
Hi ya
I just spotted your Post and can relate, sounds like you don't want or aren't ready for a Relationship just yet because you need to recover further, and have some positive experiences in general. Maybe also you have outgrown some of your Friends, or just need a break from them and some time on your own for a while, which is perfectly OK.
Frequenting on this Site, and similar will build you up more and more, whilst you focus on you, and what you want and need from Life in general, or how you want your Life to be in all Areas, (Friends, Family, Work, Social Life, Love, Hobbies, Health, Fitness etc, Beauty Self Care, Pampering etc.
As you slowly figure this out, Life will also present Opportunities to live this all out.
I wish you the very best in your Journey, Take your Time, and do what you need for you.
