Maybe I do have a problem

As I comedown from my amphetamines, laying in bed, I wonder if I may have a problem. I mean it started off as me self medicating. I don't like being tired, sad, or any of those negative things. I can function better with a little help. I don't even get high, I simply do everything better this way. As I comedown from a heavy dose (Mondays need an extra push), I wonder if this is right. If this is really what I want.

Not trying to be a downer, that's just what's on my mind. My thoughts.