Hello all, tryna heal and get better.
Thought I give it a shot to heal from my issues/baggage so I can fully be myself again. I've dealt with a lot of stress and emotional whiplash/trauma thru personal family events and love life issues and I'm trying to not become an emotionless husk. I don't want my mind to wall my emotions/feelings (and emotional connections) off and become numb and miss out on good things in life b/c I didn't address them or push them away. I feel kinda hopeless and defeated but I don't want to be.
Hello @CloudedLioness !
I am very sorry for everything that happened to you and all your suffering.
I can feel through your message a lot of emotions and especially a great strength that you have. But please, don't forget that you have the right to feel bad. <3
I think that accepting the situation, feelings, thoughts, helps a lot to feel better and more peaceful, but I know it is not easy.
Maybe guided mindfulness mediation exercises could help you find acceptance, so you could feel a little better. In case it interests you, I link you some free ones right here:
https://www.7cups.com/exercises/mindfulness505/
There are many ones available, I have the impression that the one called "Acceptance of thoughts and feelings" by Jon Kabat Zinn, in 2 parts could perhaps corresponds. (In the last category at the bottom, untitled "Uncategorized".)
I sincerely hope that you will feel better very soon. Take care.
Hello @CloudedLioness, its great that you are here, its kind of why im here to, for a long time Ive rationalized my feelings instead of just feeling, undestanding where they come from or work with them, Ive invested a lot of valuable time and many other things trying not to feel. Its hard for me to share this personally and Ive been thru therapy many times, but this time ive decided to start here and im already feelig better. Hope it helps you too!