Hi I’m new and nervous

Hi I downloaded this app because I need to talk to people to think things out and work stuff out. I’m 24 and I’m stuck in life. My past trauma and mental issues are taking over again. I’ve gone to therapy and got better, but COVID happened and I no longer see my therapist. My doctor wants to refer me to a psychologist, I want to go because I know I will improve but I also know the emotions I will have to face. Plus the face my previous therapist wanted me tested for adhd and believed I have PTSD. I don’t want it confirmed that the abuse I faced was real and that i wasn’t just imagining it. It’s a lot that I want and not want to deal with.