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Hi everyone, I'm new here, my name is Bella! And um, I've honestly got some questions because I'm not so sure about things. Is it really okay to tell your child indirectly to kill themselves? This morning I forgot to do my homework and my mother got mad, she told me these words You have three choices now, live and be a student, marry a rich man or die. Youre already useless so if you choose to die then youre extra useless for some people when they die, its over but for you in this case when you die people are still going to be talking about you Oh shes the devil child Oh this is the loser who died so if you choose to die now, youd still be a useless, loser. She said if she wanted me dead and if I did choose to die she would simply throw me away to the hospital that has COVID-19 patients and Id simply die of the sicknessAnd I'm not sure how to feel about it. I want to believe she has good intentions about it and believe that maybe its a way of discipline but I asked my friends and they told me it's totally not normal. I wanted to talk to my dad about the issue but he kept saying that it was my fault I made her mad and I deserved it. We talked for about an hour or so but he didn't give in and he kept saying that I just needed to be a responsible child, and leave the rest to god. My mother came in the middle of the conversation and told my father that Shes lying, dont trust a word shes saying she just wants to manipulate us thats why shes telling all these lies and then she hit me and such. Then she decided to make a contract that we'd both sign and if I disobeyed the contract I'd be sent to the cops. It seems a little dramatic to me isn't it? I don't think that this is normal, though I want to believe it is, but I don't know if I can keep going on like this, I don't know if it's okay, I don't know if this is a crime or anything or what I should do about it.