In need of help

Hi everyone,

I'm in need of some help...please :(

I cant stop crying and I cant eat or sleep properly..

My other half is in depression and everything I have done wrong over the last 20 years.. no matter how small is being thrown against me. Love has turned to hate for him, so he says, but he doesn't seem to want to leave me..rather he seems to want me to suffer. And I am.

We have 3 beautiful kids and I can't bear the thought of breaking up our family. I love him so much it hurts.

He mutters hateful and spiteful things to me, to the kids or just the room all day and I'm near breaking point. I don't know how to handle the stress. I know he is hurting too, but he has focused it all on me.

I just want to curl into a ball. I cry all the time. I feel unloved and broken.

Please help me