I seeked help, and now I provide help.

About two months ago, I went through a really tough breakup with someone I loved for 4 years and still going on. Oh gosh, it was so hard. Every single day is just pure torture and suffering and pain. What makes iteven sad is the fact that a few weeks before that, I lost my grandfather to an illness. Just a few days after I left my hometown, he just passed away. My girlfriend has been my anchor for all these years. Transitioning into a different phase of life, living on my own, discovering new places and new experiences, I always had her for my strong anchor, comfort, love, and confidence. One day we're fine, and a few hours after that, she just up and broke things off.

My life stooped straight into a dark hole so deep I can't even see any light. I just stayed down the hole all alone. I have no friends, my family is so far away from me, and my only love, my best friend, she just left. Gosh. I can't even sleep well. I'd wake up every 3 hours and I just lay on my bed with all these thoughts racing through my mind. It was very depressing.

One day, I finally decided to seek help. As I have no friends in real life, the only place I feel comfortable talking about my feelings is on the Internet. I went on Google and searched "depression chat". I saw 7CupsOfTea and decided to give it a go. It felt slightly softer, my depression, when I poured my heart out to this listener from the UK. The next day, I registered for a member account, and I found out I can actually provide help and it helps keep my mind off my depression. It actually helps me to help others. A few weeks after that, I decided to register for a proper listener account and went on earning training badges and started helping out others in need.

Thank you, 7CupsOfTea. You saved my life.