New person on the site

Im a young adult whos not ready for life. Ishare a bedroom with my 13 year old sister after getting injured during boot camp and needing surgery to get back to normal.

I live with a mother who is a narcissist, and a father who enables it all. My last relationship was going on 5 years, and she ended it due to her family being unsupportive and my personality issues. Ive been lost and severely hopeless since, I planned our entire life and we were going to get married when I graduated college.

I have 2 friends who work and I dont want to drag down. I still talk to my ex because shes all I have left. Lately its been difficult and Ive been making myself sick with worry.

Im terrified of being alone. Past abuse and current threats of homelessness have made my entire situation worse. I dont have anyone in my life I can talk to about this without them getting angry or frustrated with me.

I need a friend.