Saying hi

Hi all! Not going to give my name- just call me hey you or whatever strikes your fancy. I'm usually able to be upbeat and look on the bright side of everything and then recharge when I'm alone, but I've had an added stressor lately and have sunk into a pit so far I can't see the sun. I started a new job about a month ago, have been excluded by my age group, and feel very alone and like I'm failing every part of life a little bit all at once. It's turning me into a shell and I'm filled with anger and jealousy, things I don't usually encounter in myself this much. I think being here at least I can talk to some people who aren't trolls and get a feeling of connecting with people again- maybe it will turn me back to human.