Shame
I am so scared to put my real name, photo and seek for online friends or followers because I've been traumatized and rejected. No one even accepted my requests for years because people think I am not a person but a spam, and if I want attention I must take nudes or make a fool out of myself or make others exploit me. Meanwhile you all were feeling entiteled, fearless, shameless and egocentric so you had put effort to create your false online persona to draw in friends which makes others feel miserable and lacking.
I don't exist
I can not even express myself properly because twitter has a 200 word limit. TikTok has only short videos. On YouTube you can only upload a 10 min video. On facebook I can not even write down what I want into the "workplace" box but have only options to choose from the list.
I also had to give away my humor to a male because if I as a female tried it it would not work.
There were imposed limits on me by society that said I am just disturbing the current situation, ie. In classroom. No one wants to hear any thing from me, especially serious stuff even if i dont offend anyone, not even my sense of humour
... people openly tell me i am not needed. No time or place for me, ever.
