Struggling with school
Hello, ive decided to try and go back to school to finish my degree but.. i keep wanting to give up. Ive suffered from depression and anxiety since as long as i can remember and it causes me to be afraid of failure. I didnt to well on on quiz and it makes me scared to even open up my schools website (i take online classes because i cannot be in a classroom). I always have these feelings that the teachers hate me because im not smart enough... I honestly want to just give up, even though i know i cant..
@ATiny3806 I understand how anxiety and depression can hinder the things you want or need to do. That's also why I've joined 7 cups. But think about it this way; you may need to go to an online school, but that means you're still trying. Even if you get one not-so-fabulous grade, don't think that means you're a failure by any means. And if you're still going for that degree, that's great, because there are SO many people who wouldn't even go to that step.
I know opening up is hard, but something that helps me, is that they can't see my face, they can't judge me for who I really am. Just start there. Ask questions. And as hard as it is, keep going, don't give up. Sometimes I just cry for a while, and afterwards, I feel better, because I've let it out. Allow yourself to do what you need to do and continue.
I can tell you, your teachers don't hate you. Personally, I've gone very long telling myself things like that, and most of the time, I can't control those thoughts from popping in my head; it's sometimes habit. Try journaling or freelance writing whenever you have some freetime, and it'll help you relax, boost self confidence, etc. Or just take deep breaths; but keep in mind it won't work unless you focus solely on it for a few seconds.
It's about putting yourself first, without completely dropping everything else. I know you can keep going, even if I don't know YOU. It'll be hard, but worth it. And you'll never know unless you do. We're all here for you. :)