Unsure

Hello. My name is Shawn. New to this and not really sure where I should be posting. My feelings are wrapped in so many areas.

I have been married for 10 years and have 3 kids 11, 7, 3. I found out in January my wife was having an affair and was going to divorce me. Surprisingly I was not about it just very upset, it destroyed me emotionally. After a couple days my wife decided she wanted to try and work it out so we have been. Since finding this out Though I now suffer from anxiety & depression. My wife doesn’t understand it and thinks I can just get over it. Now because of it she wants to separate. I honestly just want to Vanish and forget everything. I am not suicidal though, if that even makes sense. I know it’s horrible to think this but I even feel like I want to forget my kids that I truly love. I just feel like a failure. Like I can’t be there for them, can’t care for them. I’m so tired of fighting the anxiety and depression every day with every that comes up. I’m just so exhausted.

shawn